23 Apr 07

i shall try to type in proper english. ahem. afterall, i have to start preparing myself for all the interviews and stuffs that are coming up in this super busy and stressful week.

Just read a few blogs. I'm kinda sad to see that I'm really stressing ppl out? Anw, I'm not really concerned about maintaining my "reputation", was just trying to find another excuse for you to practise. Afterall, I really want you to do well! I have been saying the same ol' things for the past weeks and really, the only thing is for you to practise and practise. I really hope you understand. haha=)Fun aside, I have to deliver what my job requires of me and it distresses me to see that after one whole week it all comes back to the same thing again. But hey, I can see an improvement! =)

The Arts education in Singapore is an extremely demoralising education system. They love little young kids and they are filled with politics and "connections". Who judges purely on your ability? What happens to Singaporeans who have grown "old"? Those who were once one of the "prodigies"? Another Mozart? To die off hungry and mass burried in some unknown "vagrant" cemetry? What about those that have simply no "connections". I mean, there is a reason why out of my entire batch there is only me still struggling so hard to pursue a tertiary music education.

Yes, I do know that life as a musician is going to be tough. But surely, not this "cornered"? It really feels like Singapore hasnt got a space for us to be in, to expand and to soar. As quoting, "what will happen to those who graduate from YST? Where will they get their job?"

What I do know is that, if I really want to be a performer, Singapore is out of the question.

In such a situation, it is always good if I can really truly believe and have faith that the Lord will provide!

Psalm 23:
The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.
You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies.
You annoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.

Dear Lord,
I pray that you'll give me the strength and faith to know that you will always be with me.
Amen.
I read another person's blog. He says, the bible contradicts and is "not foolproof".
hmm
God is omniscience and hence He knows things we know not. We are just imperfect "depraved" humans. We shouldnt give such comments and comclusions so quickly right?
It's just so expected.