I suddenly remembered that when I was much younger, I used to talk to my hands in my brain. Each hand had a unique personality of its own. My right hand was the smart, swift, agile, adaptable, but unstable kind (that is if i correct a technique on the day itself it would work but the next day when i return back its back to square one). My left hand was the slow, steady, slightly retarded, strong one.
I've always believed that the music one plays out reflects what kind of personality we are. otherwise why would everyone have a different style? so i guess as a musician its even more difficult to hide what we really are in a sense? maybe, maybe. haha a genuine performance from deep inside is always the best.
1 Corinthians 13:4-7
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
:)
Sunday, February 3, 2008
Friday, February 1, 2008
one year!
2 Feb 07
It's the first audition day today at Eastman! Looking at the buzzling sight of the Eastman main hall, nervous faces of applicants trying to find a practice room/get the location of interviews right....just brings an understanding smile to my face. So fast! One year has passed! This feeling is perhaps the same as what Wendy and I felt when we saw the J1s entering RJ as we peered down at ourselves wearing the RJ uniform, feeling "filled-with-power-and-authority" haha. no no we're not power-hungry. Just a moment ago, we were like them, wearing our shabby secondary school uniforms and looking at our seniors with the "correct" uniform...guaranteed that they will be staying at RJ even after march. I remember feeling so so so excited as I pinned up the RJ batch on my blue convent pinafore..it's as if my four-year-old uniform just got value-added! haha even when visiting SNG within the first three mths, legally not wearing my name tag, i felt powerful! oops no i'm not power hungry! just felt older, more mature. ahem guess i've always looked up to the seniors that graduated and came back in their sch uniforms with new sch badges. heh
indeed. so i practised very guiltily today. i thought of how i was once one of those applicants frantically finding a practice room thinking "just give me ten minutes to warm up my fingers!" the more i thought the more i felt that if i hogged my practice room any longer i'm ruining the future of applicant X. (self drama indeed...) and of course i couldnt take it and i hurriedly went through my concerto once and left. guess the applicants really need that room more than me! so i'll just play my little part.
i remember first stepping onto rochester soil in the last week of feb in 2006. cold cold cold! wendy and i were sorta stranded at the airport cos somebody who was supposed to meet us at the airport didnt turn up and we didnt know where the hotel shuttle phone was and where the shuttle busstop was! before this we were actually delayed in detriot airport where i remembered making a call to somebody i havent talked to for so long, who was supposed to call me one day, and whose voice was too familiar for me to take it. i just broke down at the airport. i told him our plane was delayed but he didnt say that he wouldnt come to the airport. oh well! when you still had that impression that the person isnt that bad he fails you again..its disppointing! indeed auditions were an emotional roller coaster for wendy and i...we both had stuff to face up to. ahem. ah but nope i didnt have to face up to mine. i just repeatedly had ecentric mood swings. wohoho. i really tried very hard to put the past behind me so it resulted in bursts of angelic smiles followed by a really black face oh wellwell and the TENSION when i saw him with her. i rmb my mum constantly worrying for me bcos she knew who i'd be meeting there and her reminding me countless times that "be nice! or you'll be reflecting badly on yourself!" thankfully, there was edward meowmeow there to show us ard and talk to us...he appeared more willing anw. heh oh well i will not use this post to rattle on about the past. afterall, "what matters most is the present!"
i remembered being very stressed abt my A level results too during audition. my audition day was A level results day! man! and my dear mum conveniently forgot to tell me that my brother was too busy to collect my results for me. ahem and i scared myself nuts that i failed my chemistry.
i also remembered going back to clarion hotel remembering myself typing emails to a new found friend: one pin! hahah wendy and i would be drafting emails. haha
thinking back...ah! lots of stuff have happened. perhaps the thought that hit me most today was "hey..i'm really studying here at eastman". it sounds really warped since i know i've gone through a semester alr. i did my uni applications, got through the prescreening in eastman, went for live audition at eastman, did my scholarship applications, got the teaching scholarship and SHHK bursary, managed to move in smoothly, make friends and VOILA! i'm where i am today, at least for academics. i'm actually doing my uni studies! i dont think i ever imagined myself here when i was in pri sch/sec sch. heh
oh la? then of course there was this MOE thingy where i made many new friends...and i'm glad that though i'm stranded in cold rochester, the sun shone brightly and i wasnt left alone there with nobody knowing what happened to that violin girl.
and of course! i'm really glad theres strange singaporean girls: wendy, nana and joelle here to talk, play, emo, go crazy with, creating our rochester dictionary! oh yes not forgetting john, steph, ricardo that has made adjusting life to rochester much easier! :)
It's the first audition day today at Eastman! Looking at the buzzling sight of the Eastman main hall, nervous faces of applicants trying to find a practice room/get the location of interviews right....just brings an understanding smile to my face. So fast! One year has passed! This feeling is perhaps the same as what Wendy and I felt when we saw the J1s entering RJ as we peered down at ourselves wearing the RJ uniform, feeling "filled-with-power-and-authority" haha. no no we're not power-hungry. Just a moment ago, we were like them, wearing our shabby secondary school uniforms and looking at our seniors with the "correct" uniform...guaranteed that they will be staying at RJ even after march. I remember feeling so so so excited as I pinned up the RJ batch on my blue convent pinafore..it's as if my four-year-old uniform just got value-added! haha even when visiting SNG within the first three mths, legally not wearing my name tag, i felt powerful! oops no i'm not power hungry! just felt older, more mature. ahem guess i've always looked up to the seniors that graduated and came back in their sch uniforms with new sch badges. heh
indeed. so i practised very guiltily today. i thought of how i was once one of those applicants frantically finding a practice room thinking "just give me ten minutes to warm up my fingers!" the more i thought the more i felt that if i hogged my practice room any longer i'm ruining the future of applicant X. (self drama indeed...) and of course i couldnt take it and i hurriedly went through my concerto once and left. guess the applicants really need that room more than me! so i'll just play my little part.
i remember first stepping onto rochester soil in the last week of feb in 2006. cold cold cold! wendy and i were sorta stranded at the airport cos somebody who was supposed to meet us at the airport didnt turn up and we didnt know where the hotel shuttle phone was and where the shuttle busstop was! before this we were actually delayed in detriot airport where i remembered making a call to somebody i havent talked to for so long, who was supposed to call me one day, and whose voice was too familiar for me to take it. i just broke down at the airport. i told him our plane was delayed but he didnt say that he wouldnt come to the airport. oh well! when you still had that impression that the person isnt that bad he fails you again..its disppointing! indeed auditions were an emotional roller coaster for wendy and i...we both had stuff to face up to. ahem. ah but nope i didnt have to face up to mine. i just repeatedly had ecentric mood swings. wohoho. i really tried very hard to put the past behind me so it resulted in bursts of angelic smiles followed by a really black face oh wellwell and the TENSION when i saw him with her. i rmb my mum constantly worrying for me bcos she knew who i'd be meeting there and her reminding me countless times that "be nice! or you'll be reflecting badly on yourself!" thankfully, there was edward meowmeow there to show us ard and talk to us...he appeared more willing anw. heh oh well i will not use this post to rattle on about the past. afterall, "what matters most is the present!"
i remembered being very stressed abt my A level results too during audition. my audition day was A level results day! man! and my dear mum conveniently forgot to tell me that my brother was too busy to collect my results for me. ahem and i scared myself nuts that i failed my chemistry.
i also remembered going back to clarion hotel remembering myself typing emails to a new found friend: one pin! hahah wendy and i would be drafting emails. haha
thinking back...ah! lots of stuff have happened. perhaps the thought that hit me most today was "hey..i'm really studying here at eastman". it sounds really warped since i know i've gone through a semester alr. i did my uni applications, got through the prescreening in eastman, went for live audition at eastman, did my scholarship applications, got the teaching scholarship and SHHK bursary, managed to move in smoothly, make friends and VOILA! i'm where i am today, at least for academics. i'm actually doing my uni studies! i dont think i ever imagined myself here when i was in pri sch/sec sch. heh
oh la? then of course there was this MOE thingy where i made many new friends...and i'm glad that though i'm stranded in cold rochester, the sun shone brightly and i wasnt left alone there with nobody knowing what happened to that violin girl.
and of course! i'm really glad theres strange singaporean girls: wendy, nana and joelle here to talk, play, emo, go crazy with, creating our rochester dictionary! oh yes not forgetting john, steph, ricardo that has made adjusting life to rochester much easier! :)
back to rochester...soon
7 Jan 08
malisa had a really wonderful time in singapore!
hmm i should recap what i did.
After sleeping for only three hours, i got up and got ready to fly back home. it was stressful and i was constantly worrying about flight delays cos i had three connecting flights with not more than an hour in between each flight. but thank God! the weather was miraculously good (there was a snow storm just the day before) and I flew back in one piece. managed to pack what i wanted back home...the huge amounts of food and using steph's weighing scale to weigh my luggage and repacking and repacking...managed to buy what i wanted to buy for my uncle and grandma in the narita airport...managed to buy beer for my dad...managed to collect my luggage and kick it outside that glass panel (though looking a bit unglam) cos there were no more trolleys...got a surprise when i saw yibin and my two lovely students at the airport to receive me! i was dreadfully hot hot hot cos i wore like two layers of pants and i was carrying my winter coat, vln and many other stuff... (right i just remembered that i havent practised violin at all during this break =S) ooh then i headed down for supper! ate a nice mee sua soup! chompchomp! =)
i dont think i'll forget how happy i was seeing changi airport from inside the plane. wanted to share the excitement with this canadian lady sitting beside me well, our enthusiasm were clearly of a different level. and of course, when i turned on my phone i saw a very sincere phone-sent message! aww =)
right so when i reached home i started giving out presents i bought to my parents and brother. they were happy. and then i got bombed. i was really quite shocked and i did tear quite a bit but after a few days and seeing her in person i started to accept it. do what you can when the person is around! no point wasting precious time away feeling sad or what not. mm! so i'm making full use of this holiday here to do what i can so that i wont regret it. i've told her to wait wait wait for me to get back in may and we'll go eat KFC together. told her to count down to when i'm reaching back in singapore. i'll pray and i'll continue to hope.
she loves eating macs! aww she's so so so cute. her appetite has not been very good and i was surprised that she could eat so much when i cooked chicken rice for her and when she ate in macs yesterday. haha so i concluded with my mum and aunty that she's spoilt and that she's picky. hahahaha but i really think she's enjoying life...very ho mia...like when we were eating macs she said she wanted french fries. hahaha in the end she got to eat half a fillet-o-fish (I ate the other half), eat the red bean pie and da bao an apple pie, drink coffee (but refused to drink it later cos it's too bitter-so she claims), drink coke (and complain it's too cold), eat my very nice french fries dipped in ice cream (and she was smiling while eating that! awwww so cute!) indeed she's weh weh weh americanised! hahahaha i can bring her to US le. :)
and then as usual we went to walk walk at Giant where i was holding her and she started to nag at me again. Study hard! Dont get distracted by other things! (ahem ahem)Get good grades! Come back and earn alot of money! haha she's really funny. she asks me weird questions but then tells me not to get distracted. aww =)
wellwell i had many family gatherings too where i was showered with lots and lots of sincerity and i felt really loved! i feel that i'm very pampered by my parents, brother, uncles and aunties! tee hee hee =) my mum brought me shopping for clothes, talking to me and many other stuff, my dad drove me to buy clothes, buy nice food for me like tampines nasi lemak and chilli crab, my brother kept wanting to treat me good food every other day (aww!), roydon's dad cooked my favourite chilli chicken, black pepper crab, steam fish, roydon's mum sewing for me my choir dress, allowing me to steal that really cute purple penguin lover of mine, my jiujiu buying otah for me and that colourful steam cake, nonya kuehs like the rainbow kueh and oneh oneh! awwww malisa is truly touched! and of course there were lots lots more that they did which i will remember and bring with me to rochester! =))
family gatherings aside! i've met up with some SNG friends, got a very nice set of expensive bath necessities which i will figure out how to use, a really small class gathering and mep outing and BS lunch at RJ where i coloured and bought the RJ polo tee with wendy!
oh and yes i had other wonderful outings too. like watching swan lake (where i was disppointed! no live orchestra! we'll watch one another day ok?), eating macs, receiving weh sincere happiness presents, nice christmas service that was weh entertaining and warm, dessert and gaping at ppl's 3D-ness, nice breakfast at RJ, trekking at bukit timah hill, chatting late at night and of course! sushi (in january =P) hahaha followed by a very nice walk!
all these memories i will bring with me to rochester and i think they will be able to last me through the next semester so i wont miss things too much here! =)
malisa had a really wonderful time in singapore!
hmm i should recap what i did.
After sleeping for only three hours, i got up and got ready to fly back home. it was stressful and i was constantly worrying about flight delays cos i had three connecting flights with not more than an hour in between each flight. but thank God! the weather was miraculously good (there was a snow storm just the day before) and I flew back in one piece. managed to pack what i wanted back home...the huge amounts of food and using steph's weighing scale to weigh my luggage and repacking and repacking...managed to buy what i wanted to buy for my uncle and grandma in the narita airport...managed to buy beer for my dad...managed to collect my luggage and kick it outside that glass panel (though looking a bit unglam) cos there were no more trolleys...got a surprise when i saw yibin and my two lovely students at the airport to receive me! i was dreadfully hot hot hot cos i wore like two layers of pants and i was carrying my winter coat, vln and many other stuff... (right i just remembered that i havent practised violin at all during this break =S) ooh then i headed down for supper! ate a nice mee sua soup! chompchomp! =)
i dont think i'll forget how happy i was seeing changi airport from inside the plane. wanted to share the excitement with this canadian lady sitting beside me well, our enthusiasm were clearly of a different level. and of course, when i turned on my phone i saw a very sincere phone-sent message! aww =)
right so when i reached home i started giving out presents i bought to my parents and brother. they were happy. and then i got bombed. i was really quite shocked and i did tear quite a bit but after a few days and seeing her in person i started to accept it. do what you can when the person is around! no point wasting precious time away feeling sad or what not. mm! so i'm making full use of this holiday here to do what i can so that i wont regret it. i've told her to wait wait wait for me to get back in may and we'll go eat KFC together. told her to count down to when i'm reaching back in singapore. i'll pray and i'll continue to hope.
she loves eating macs! aww she's so so so cute. her appetite has not been very good and i was surprised that she could eat so much when i cooked chicken rice for her and when she ate in macs yesterday. haha so i concluded with my mum and aunty that she's spoilt and that she's picky. hahahaha but i really think she's enjoying life...very ho mia...like when we were eating macs she said she wanted french fries. hahaha in the end she got to eat half a fillet-o-fish (I ate the other half), eat the red bean pie and da bao an apple pie, drink coffee (but refused to drink it later cos it's too bitter-so she claims), drink coke (and complain it's too cold), eat my very nice french fries dipped in ice cream (and she was smiling while eating that! awwww so cute!) indeed she's weh weh weh americanised! hahahaha i can bring her to US le. :)
and then as usual we went to walk walk at Giant where i was holding her and she started to nag at me again. Study hard! Dont get distracted by other things! (ahem ahem)Get good grades! Come back and earn alot of money! haha she's really funny. she asks me weird questions but then tells me not to get distracted. aww =)
wellwell i had many family gatherings too where i was showered with lots and lots of sincerity and i felt really loved! i feel that i'm very pampered by my parents, brother, uncles and aunties! tee hee hee =) my mum brought me shopping for clothes, talking to me and many other stuff, my dad drove me to buy clothes, buy nice food for me like tampines nasi lemak and chilli crab, my brother kept wanting to treat me good food every other day (aww!), roydon's dad cooked my favourite chilli chicken, black pepper crab, steam fish, roydon's mum sewing for me my choir dress, allowing me to steal that really cute purple penguin lover of mine, my jiujiu buying otah for me and that colourful steam cake, nonya kuehs like the rainbow kueh and oneh oneh! awwww malisa is truly touched! and of course there were lots lots more that they did which i will remember and bring with me to rochester! =))
family gatherings aside! i've met up with some SNG friends, got a very nice set of expensive bath necessities which i will figure out how to use, a really small class gathering and mep outing and BS lunch at RJ where i coloured and bought the RJ polo tee with wendy!
oh and yes i had other wonderful outings too. like watching swan lake (where i was disppointed! no live orchestra! we'll watch one another day ok?), eating macs, receiving weh sincere happiness presents, nice christmas service that was weh entertaining and warm, dessert and gaping at ppl's 3D-ness, nice breakfast at RJ, trekking at bukit timah hill, chatting late at night and of course! sushi (in january =P) hahaha followed by a very nice walk!
all these memories i will bring with me to rochester and i think they will be able to last me through the next semester so i wont miss things too much here! =)
hmm...
28 Dec 07
tired! just finished cooking and my left hand is burning. it has been ages since i last cut chilli padi and made my hand burning hot. hmm though uncomfortable, i seriously dont mind. i love being home!
rather eventful day i guess. went out with sng cy+bf, ys, yq and mui and we went to pepper lunch! hmm before we proceeded to macs to do further catching up. its funny how cy said "see you in 5 mths time" i felt so AWW. =(
so life has probably been the same for my dear friends and i told them many stories from states. hmm i've got a feeling i talked too much and said too much strangely i felt good doing that. at least they do know what has been happening in my life, that i'm not keeping anything from them. there are some friends that i've chosen to close my doors on but there are some that i truly want to continue being friends with so i guess sharing insights of my life to them and allowing them to be updated and welcoming them in is my way of showing them that i truly treasure the friendship we have! =)
i really do hope we will continue to meet up during my holidays and stuff esp when ys and yq are going off to aussie soon! hmm.
then met wendy at orchard and we walked to orchard point. rather far but it was good to walk with her under the sun all the way there! i scared a person by talking to loud (oops) and he ran away. aww. am i that scary?
so wendy and i were angels today who delievered nice presents to neil's special someone. i felt genuinely happy for the both of them. i think the two are very compatible! and they gave out the same aura! then wendy and i sat outside orchard point and talked abit, took pictures and tried to guess which country a grp of blondes were from. it was nice.
then socks finally came and we were off for some dessert! wendy was amazed at his 3D-ness haha =)
after that i went back home to cook for the next 1.5hrs. rush like mad but hopefully the food is good. heh lots of effort and love was put into it! AWWW =)
tired! just finished cooking and my left hand is burning. it has been ages since i last cut chilli padi and made my hand burning hot. hmm though uncomfortable, i seriously dont mind. i love being home!
rather eventful day i guess. went out with sng cy+bf, ys, yq and mui and we went to pepper lunch! hmm before we proceeded to macs to do further catching up. its funny how cy said "see you in 5 mths time" i felt so AWW. =(
so life has probably been the same for my dear friends and i told them many stories from states. hmm i've got a feeling i talked too much and said too much strangely i felt good doing that. at least they do know what has been happening in my life, that i'm not keeping anything from them. there are some friends that i've chosen to close my doors on but there are some that i truly want to continue being friends with so i guess sharing insights of my life to them and allowing them to be updated and welcoming them in is my way of showing them that i truly treasure the friendship we have! =)
i really do hope we will continue to meet up during my holidays and stuff esp when ys and yq are going off to aussie soon! hmm.
then met wendy at orchard and we walked to orchard point. rather far but it was good to walk with her under the sun all the way there! i scared a person by talking to loud (oops) and he ran away. aww. am i that scary?
so wendy and i were angels today who delievered nice presents to neil's special someone. i felt genuinely happy for the both of them. i think the two are very compatible! and they gave out the same aura! then wendy and i sat outside orchard point and talked abit, took pictures and tried to guess which country a grp of blondes were from. it was nice.
then socks finally came and we were off for some dessert! wendy was amazed at his 3D-ness haha =)
after that i went back home to cook for the next 1.5hrs. rush like mad but hopefully the food is good. heh lots of effort and love was put into it! AWWW =)
Home Home Home!
25 Dec 07
right now for a more detailed update!
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!
I'm really enjoying myself back in Singapore! =)
So far, I've went to a ballet, been involved in christmas service, eating (local food and haha MACS =P), sleeping and constantly worrying that i've no clothes to wear. hahaha yes, i brought too little clothes back cos i bought too much food. oops. =)
it's nice to be back at home, pampered and protected! and it's nice to be back here to be able to meet ppl face to face! mm! I was even feeling so excited taking the MRT...!
alright...i feel like sleeping again! aww though i slp at earthly and healthy timings i still get tired at weird hours!
Singapore! HOME! love it! ^_^
right now for a more detailed update!
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!
I'm really enjoying myself back in Singapore! =)
So far, I've went to a ballet, been involved in christmas service, eating (local food and haha MACS =P), sleeping and constantly worrying that i've no clothes to wear. hahaha yes, i brought too little clothes back cos i bought too much food. oops. =)
it's nice to be back at home, pampered and protected! and it's nice to be back here to be able to meet ppl face to face! mm! I was even feeling so excited taking the MRT...!
alright...i feel like sleeping again! aww though i slp at earthly and healthy timings i still get tired at weird hours!
Singapore! HOME! love it! ^_^
STRESSED!
12 Dec 07
malisa is stressed. she has alot alot alot of work to do...she cant slp though she's tired (hence that stupid double eyelid refuses to go away), she wants to prac piano but has no time,she sincerely hopes that she wont be drived nuts in these few days and that everything will be peaceful and normal.
malisa needs a break.
she misses singapore....
malisa is stressed. she has alot alot alot of work to do...she cant slp though she's tired (hence that stupid double eyelid refuses to go away), she wants to prac piano but has no time,she sincerely hopes that she wont be drived nuts in these few days and that everything will be peaceful and normal.
malisa needs a break.
she misses singapore....
Trouble is here.
30 Nov 07
tonight is The Thing. Yours truly will survive this period. I hope.
ROOOOAAAARRRRRR
tonight is The Thing. Yours truly will survive this period. I hope.
ROOOOAAAARRRRRR
27 Nov 07
right. listening to music helps motivate me to blog. i will try my best to keep this blog alive as long as possible!
I found another funny fact about studying in America:
If you forget to bring your worksheets, just ask for a new one. No punishment, no reprimanding, no questions asked, no warnings not to do it again. wow.
I went to watch the nutcracker ballet yesterday. it was really beautiful and pretty with all the costumes and props and sets and of course lovely music. RPO (rochester philharmonic orchestra) is really good. i have never heard tchaikovsky's nutcracker suite as a whole until yesterday. i finally know how the music fits into the ballet, I played the piano transcriptions before and what i imagined to be was not like that at all. hmm. oh well!
Anw, back to what i was supposed to blog about yesterday. hmm several reflections about being a performance major.
I still cant accept the fact that ppl expect all performance majors to do spontaneous performances anywhere, anytime. maybe i'm just not good enough, not steady enough to react and adapt quickly to demands. maybe it's becos i want every performance i do to be perfect. well, maybe not so extreme, but at least to a certain standard.
My ideal performance is not a performance where i play everything perfect but rather it is where i feel perfect. It is when my audience is totally absorbed into what I play and where I get a sudden satisfaction that I still have no idea how to describe. This satisfied feeling is an addictive one and this is also the very feeling that motivates me to do performance after performance.
I get goosebumps everytime I hear music that really moves me. just imagine giving yourself goosebumps by what you play. I have had several experiences of this but it doesnt come very often. hmm
right. listening to music helps motivate me to blog. i will try my best to keep this blog alive as long as possible!
I found another funny fact about studying in America:
If you forget to bring your worksheets, just ask for a new one. No punishment, no reprimanding, no questions asked, no warnings not to do it again. wow.
I went to watch the nutcracker ballet yesterday. it was really beautiful and pretty with all the costumes and props and sets and of course lovely music. RPO (rochester philharmonic orchestra) is really good. i have never heard tchaikovsky's nutcracker suite as a whole until yesterday. i finally know how the music fits into the ballet, I played the piano transcriptions before and what i imagined to be was not like that at all. hmm. oh well!
Anw, back to what i was supposed to blog about yesterday. hmm several reflections about being a performance major.
I still cant accept the fact that ppl expect all performance majors to do spontaneous performances anywhere, anytime. maybe i'm just not good enough, not steady enough to react and adapt quickly to demands. maybe it's becos i want every performance i do to be perfect. well, maybe not so extreme, but at least to a certain standard.
My ideal performance is not a performance where i play everything perfect but rather it is where i feel perfect. It is when my audience is totally absorbed into what I play and where I get a sudden satisfaction that I still have no idea how to describe. This satisfied feeling is an addictive one and this is also the very feeling that motivates me to do performance after performance.
I get goosebumps everytime I hear music that really moves me. just imagine giving yourself goosebumps by what you play. I have had several experiences of this but it doesnt come very often. hmm
Water FLOWS!
24 Nov 07
Ahh! update update! =)
I guess pretty much has been happening, too much that I've been kept really busy.
It's thanksgiving break here! Started from tues at 1130am and it'll end on sun.sad. I dont even get a full weeks' break unlike SOMEBODY. BLEAH. The dorms are back to as quiet as before the Americans moved in. On my floor theres only wendy, me and one more shanghai girl. Really nice to have the washroom to ourselves haha! BUT this morning, we saw a GUY without a SHIRT using OUR BATHROOM. Shirtless wasnt the point, using OUR BATHROOM was the point. tsk. oh well guess we cant do anything if ppl choose to ignore the "ladies" sign.
MOVING ON! wahaha on tues I went to the chinese grocery and weggmans to buy groceries to cook on sat at uncle johnny's place. The chinese grocery was like a typical chinese wet market, wet and a bit smelly and eeky (this is perhaps the first eeky place i've seen here) but nevertheless the things they sold there were very familiar. felt quite at home looking at peanut candies, TURTLES (reminds me of turtle soup), whole fishes in those white styrofoam cartons. And guess what I found! FROZEN MICROWAVEABLE CHICKEN RICE! oh yummy yummy chomp chomp. I made some ppl DROOL wahahaha =P
oh well weggmans was just but another cold storage like mega mart. hmm i cant wait to get home.
on WED! hmm what did I do? oh yea! marketplace mall where we shopped till we really dropped. bought quite a few presents for ppl and of course for myself too. haha indeed, malisa is not becoming a bimbo.
on thurs! HIGHLIGHT of the week. hahah! We went to the american side niagara falls. It was really exciting and fun but it was awfully cold. Like what mr chenjie said "you all will become frozen fats". We couldnt pronounce stuff like "big bird" cos our cheeks were frozen and numb. wendy looked like an eskimo. she stole gloves and a jacket from me. lucky i was kiasu enough to bring extra. heh. the falls were amazing even if we watched it from the american side (ppl say the canadian side is much better). I took about over two hundred photos and many videos. shall upload it soon. we had other exciting and unpleasant moments as well. yep. very very tiring especially when i was kind of like in charge of everything. well well so maybe i couldnt enjoy the trip fully.
ITS BLACK FRIDAY TODAY! hoho wendy joelle and I are going to have a spontaneous trip to marketplace mall again. yep update update! =)
Ahh! update update! =)
I guess pretty much has been happening, too much that I've been kept really busy.
It's thanksgiving break here! Started from tues at 1130am and it'll end on sun.sad. I dont even get a full weeks' break unlike SOMEBODY. BLEAH. The dorms are back to as quiet as before the Americans moved in. On my floor theres only wendy, me and one more shanghai girl. Really nice to have the washroom to ourselves haha! BUT this morning, we saw a GUY without a SHIRT using OUR BATHROOM. Shirtless wasnt the point, using OUR BATHROOM was the point. tsk. oh well guess we cant do anything if ppl choose to ignore the "ladies" sign.
MOVING ON! wahaha on tues I went to the chinese grocery and weggmans to buy groceries to cook on sat at uncle johnny's place. The chinese grocery was like a typical chinese wet market, wet and a bit smelly and eeky (this is perhaps the first eeky place i've seen here) but nevertheless the things they sold there were very familiar. felt quite at home looking at peanut candies, TURTLES (reminds me of turtle soup), whole fishes in those white styrofoam cartons. And guess what I found! FROZEN MICROWAVEABLE CHICKEN RICE! oh yummy yummy chomp chomp. I made some ppl DROOL wahahaha =P
oh well weggmans was just but another cold storage like mega mart. hmm i cant wait to get home.
on WED! hmm what did I do? oh yea! marketplace mall where we shopped till we really dropped. bought quite a few presents for ppl and of course for myself too. haha indeed, malisa is not becoming a bimbo.
on thurs! HIGHLIGHT of the week. hahah! We went to the american side niagara falls. It was really exciting and fun but it was awfully cold. Like what mr chenjie said "you all will become frozen fats". We couldnt pronounce stuff like "big bird" cos our cheeks were frozen and numb. wendy looked like an eskimo. she stole gloves and a jacket from me. lucky i was kiasu enough to bring extra. heh. the falls were amazing even if we watched it from the american side (ppl say the canadian side is much better). I took about over two hundred photos and many videos. shall upload it soon. we had other exciting and unpleasant moments as well. yep. very very tiring especially when i was kind of like in charge of everything. well well so maybe i couldnt enjoy the trip fully.
ITS BLACK FRIDAY TODAY! hoho wendy joelle and I are going to have a spontaneous trip to marketplace mall again. yep update update! =)
1 funny thing and 1 not funny thing
14 Nov 2007
This morning I was on my way to sch waiting at the traffic light. A girl said "wassup?" to this guy beside her and the guy replied "alright". Indeed, way off the point. So the girl went "hey, i asked you wassup and you said alright?" the guy shrugged.
I thought this never happens to americans but apparently not. I think I say so many "good" in a day that suddenly maybe good is a suitable word to reply to daily questions.
How was your day?Good.How are you?Good. How was your lesson?Good.
and well, the list goes on. So theres also varying responses from a single word good. You can give a good. Good. or Good!
When i first came here I really bothered to reply truthfully. heh but now, i'm perhaps just more selective. cos well sometimes you dont get the chance to reply truthfully too. the person who asked you would have walked off.
I've also learnt that politics can kill. Seriously
This morning I was on my way to sch waiting at the traffic light. A girl said "wassup?" to this guy beside her and the guy replied "alright". Indeed, way off the point. So the girl went "hey, i asked you wassup and you said alright?" the guy shrugged.
I thought this never happens to americans but apparently not. I think I say so many "good" in a day that suddenly maybe good is a suitable word to reply to daily questions.
How was your day?Good.How are you?Good. How was your lesson?Good.
and well, the list goes on. So theres also varying responses from a single word good. You can give a good. Good. or Good!
When i first came here I really bothered to reply truthfully. heh but now, i'm perhaps just more selective. cos well sometimes you dont get the chance to reply truthfully too. the person who asked you would have walked off.
I've also learnt that politics can kill. Seriously
1 Nov 2007
Several reasons why studying in America is fun:
1)Your teacher comes into class in a Hawaiian suit on Halloween. Bright orange shirt with a funny cheena putple hat and a fake garland of roses around his neck.
2)Your teacher gives out sweets to you on Halloween and takes one to eat himself while lecturing.
3)Your teacher encourages you to eat those sweets in class. "Eugene! you need to eat those chocolates. You need that sugar rush and caffeine!" Eugene looks up in a dazed cannot be bothered look.
4)You are 20 minutes late for class but your teacher still smiles at you and offers you his sweets and still grins though you are standing in the middle of the class, taking 5 minutes to choose your sweet.
5)Your teacher brings the worksheets to you. You just have to sit on your chair.
6)Your teacher walks up to you to collect your homework and provides a gigantic stapler and staples your homework for you.
7)You can go to the toilet whenever you like. No permission is needed.
8)You can legally pon your classes for a certain number of times.
9)Wearing scary halloween costumes are allowed.
10)You get scared randomly, innocently by a stranger (who is so huge in size, wearing a hideous mask with big chains ard his neck and scary claws) who sneaks up behind you and waits patiently for you to turn your head.
11)Old NDP songs that make you emo gets called "cheesy hippies 1980s music" by your American/Canadian friend.
12)Having nothing to do on some nights and later oversleeping the next day becos the previous night, your roommate and you were fighting who writes what. Malisa: "I WRITE TSAO I WRITE TSAO!" Wendy: "FINE!"
13)The typhoon made friends witrh another typhoon, while describing different piles of mess on your table (It's wendy's table. not mine).
-to be continued when I can think of somemore-
Several reasons why studying in America is fun:
1)Your teacher comes into class in a Hawaiian suit on Halloween. Bright orange shirt with a funny cheena putple hat and a fake garland of roses around his neck.
2)Your teacher gives out sweets to you on Halloween and takes one to eat himself while lecturing.
3)Your teacher encourages you to eat those sweets in class. "Eugene! you need to eat those chocolates. You need that sugar rush and caffeine!" Eugene looks up in a dazed cannot be bothered look.
4)You are 20 minutes late for class but your teacher still smiles at you and offers you his sweets and still grins though you are standing in the middle of the class, taking 5 minutes to choose your sweet.
5)Your teacher brings the worksheets to you. You just have to sit on your chair.
6)Your teacher walks up to you to collect your homework and provides a gigantic stapler and staples your homework for you.
7)You can go to the toilet whenever you like. No permission is needed.
8)You can legally pon your classes for a certain number of times.
9)Wearing scary halloween costumes are allowed.
10)You get scared randomly, innocently by a stranger (who is so huge in size, wearing a hideous mask with big chains ard his neck and scary claws) who sneaks up behind you and waits patiently for you to turn your head.
11)Old NDP songs that make you emo gets called "cheesy hippies 1980s music" by your American/Canadian friend.
12)Having nothing to do on some nights and later oversleeping the next day becos the previous night, your roommate and you were fighting who writes what. Malisa: "I WRITE TSAO I WRITE TSAO!" Wendy: "FINE!"
13)The typhoon made friends witrh another typhoon, while describing different piles of mess on your table (It's wendy's table. not mine).
-to be continued when I can think of somemore-
A really tiny bible study that I did
28 Oct 2007
Luke 6:37-42
Judging Others 37"Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven. 38Give, and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you."
39He also told them this parable: "Can a blind man lead a blind man? Will they not both fall into a pit? 40A student is not above his teacher, but everyone who is fully trained will be like his teacher.
41"Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? 42How can you say to your brother, 'Brother, let me take the speck out of your eye,' when you yourself fail to see the plank in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye.
Where do we draw the line between judging and making a stand? How do you take a stand but not judge? Does tolerance come into the picture as well? How about correcting or giving advice to ppl ard us? Are we allowed to comment?
So on the other hand, God can judge since He is the greatest, most powerful, most knowledgeable and well He is our creator. So since he said that homosexuality cannot be tolerated, are we then allowed to judge that their behavior is intolerable?
For me, I try my best not be too quick to get angry/condemn a person for doing things or choosing to do things in a way that i dont approve. cos there must be a reason that led to the person to do things the way the person did.
sometimes i forget and i start to complain. like today.a person suddenly stormed off during brunch due to something very very small(i feel). but i later found out that somebody else said something not very nice to that person before i was talking to that person. so i guess, any little thing that I did that the person didnt like would ignite That Fire and hence the person stomred off bcos of a really small thing.
see, we never know what the big picture is so dont come up with comclusions so fast! hence, in a way, dont judge. Dont judge others by what you see and what you hear cos there are so many things that you will not see nor hear. I suppose, in a way, give others a chance to live. What we do may not always be the right way. And if ppl do things differently from us, they may not be wrong.
I'm always very hesitant to put such things down in my blog cos no.1, I'm really not gd at this religion thing. Theres still so much about christianity that i dont quite understand. No.2 philo is a huge headache to me. no.3 sometimes my ideas are totally rubbish and off the point.
but well, this is a start i guess...
I'm quite foncused by what I'm writing but WELL. time to go to bed. haha
Luke 6:37-42
Judging Others 37"Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven. 38Give, and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you."
39He also told them this parable: "Can a blind man lead a blind man? Will they not both fall into a pit? 40A student is not above his teacher, but everyone who is fully trained will be like his teacher.
41"Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? 42How can you say to your brother, 'Brother, let me take the speck out of your eye,' when you yourself fail to see the plank in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye.
Where do we draw the line between judging and making a stand? How do you take a stand but not judge? Does tolerance come into the picture as well? How about correcting or giving advice to ppl ard us? Are we allowed to comment?
So on the other hand, God can judge since He is the greatest, most powerful, most knowledgeable and well He is our creator. So since he said that homosexuality cannot be tolerated, are we then allowed to judge that their behavior is intolerable?
For me, I try my best not be too quick to get angry/condemn a person for doing things or choosing to do things in a way that i dont approve. cos there must be a reason that led to the person to do things the way the person did.
sometimes i forget and i start to complain. like today.a person suddenly stormed off during brunch due to something very very small(i feel). but i later found out that somebody else said something not very nice to that person before i was talking to that person. so i guess, any little thing that I did that the person didnt like would ignite That Fire and hence the person stomred off bcos of a really small thing.
see, we never know what the big picture is so dont come up with comclusions so fast! hence, in a way, dont judge. Dont judge others by what you see and what you hear cos there are so many things that you will not see nor hear. I suppose, in a way, give others a chance to live. What we do may not always be the right way. And if ppl do things differently from us, they may not be wrong.
I'm always very hesitant to put such things down in my blog cos no.1, I'm really not gd at this religion thing. Theres still so much about christianity that i dont quite understand. No.2 philo is a huge headache to me. no.3 sometimes my ideas are totally rubbish and off the point.
but well, this is a start i guess...
I'm quite foncused by what I'm writing but WELL. time to go to bed. haha
21 Oct 2007
In this rare ocasion that I can relate to lyrics of a chinese pop song, I decided to post it up here. For the first time, wendy could discuss it with me. It is also a rare ocasion in recent years that I can memorise chinese lyrics. hahaha oh well, heres the song:
怎么去拥有 一道彩虹
怎么去拥抱 一夏天的风
天上的星星 笑地上的人
总是不能懂 不能觉得足够
如果我爱上 你的笑容 要怎么收藏 要怎么拥有
如果你快乐 不是为我 会不会放手 其实才是拥有
当一阵风吹来 风筝飞上天空
为了你而祈祷 而祝福 而感动
终于你身影 消失在 人海尽头 才发现 笑着哭 最痛
那天你和我 那个山丘 那样的唱着 那一年的歌
那样的回忆 那么足够 足够我天天 都品尝着寂寞
当一阵风吹来 风筝飞上天空
为了你而祈祷 而祝福 而感动
终于你身影 消失在 人海尽头 才发现 笑着哭 最痛
如果我爱上 你的笑容 要怎么收藏 要怎么拥有
如果你快乐 不是为我 会不会放手 其实才是拥有
知足的快乐 叫我忍受心痛
知足的快乐 叫我忍受心痛
Several things happened!
Indeed, firstly about Jeremy Tan. haha wendy and I screamed out loud in the toilet. I think the way we think is getting more and more similar. haha thats not gd! it means i'm degrading! hahahaha
Had rep singers concert. oh well!
I've wanted to blog about certain topics for a very long time, but have never gotten down to it, and dont think i will tonight/morning.
contrary to what many ppl think, I think.....alright. nvm
In this rare ocasion that I can relate to lyrics of a chinese pop song, I decided to post it up here. For the first time, wendy could discuss it with me. It is also a rare ocasion in recent years that I can memorise chinese lyrics. hahaha oh well, heres the song:
怎么去拥有 一道彩虹
怎么去拥抱 一夏天的风
天上的星星 笑地上的人
总是不能懂 不能觉得足够
如果我爱上 你的笑容 要怎么收藏 要怎么拥有
如果你快乐 不是为我 会不会放手 其实才是拥有
当一阵风吹来 风筝飞上天空
为了你而祈祷 而祝福 而感动
终于你身影 消失在 人海尽头 才发现 笑着哭 最痛
那天你和我 那个山丘 那样的唱着 那一年的歌
那样的回忆 那么足够 足够我天天 都品尝着寂寞
当一阵风吹来 风筝飞上天空
为了你而祈祷 而祝福 而感动
终于你身影 消失在 人海尽头 才发现 笑着哭 最痛
如果我爱上 你的笑容 要怎么收藏 要怎么拥有
如果你快乐 不是为我 会不会放手 其实才是拥有
知足的快乐 叫我忍受心痛
知足的快乐 叫我忍受心痛
Several things happened!
Indeed, firstly about Jeremy Tan. haha wendy and I screamed out loud in the toilet. I think the way we think is getting more and more similar. haha thats not gd! it means i'm degrading! hahahaha
Had rep singers concert. oh well!
I've wanted to blog about certain topics for a very long time, but have never gotten down to it, and dont think i will tonight/morning.
contrary to what many ppl think, I think.....alright. nvm
19th BIRTHDAY!
19 Oct 2007
right. my diary is in a hideous template. see chenjie, I cant even handle my own blog template how to help you??
ANWS. too much has happen. My nails are still growing terribly fast and wellwell, malisa just got older.
two surprises and some cards received, NOPE socks. yours isnt here yet (actually, I havent checked today...maybe it did!)together with some presents!
malisa feels loved and popular in her entire 36 hour long birthday, including being on facebook too. hahahhaha
So, I clearly rmb how my birthday was last year. It was study break and we didnt have to go to sch but somehow, that day, I still had to go back in the morning, some make up lecture. Received many presents from classmates, many smses and someone even travelled all the way to my house to pass me a very nicely prepared gift which later served great use. I was touched! by everyone of course. hahah
This is my first birthday spent outside singapore, away from my family. Its just different isnt it? Haha for the next three years (at least) I'll be doing just that, spending birthdays away from home, missing out chinese new year too (ok, random). I'm very touched by all who have made an effort to do something for me today, whether to send me cards (after I subtley hinted my address in US), to give me simple but very sweet presents (Lina and Joelle!), very nice velvety card (chloe!), surprise #1 (wendy, christina and ricardo) and surprise #2 (daddy, mummy and pinky), continue contributing to my chicken poxified door (zhao wei!), those who sent me ecards! (cy, wyf, the officer (ahem), sent me an email (wanyiyiyi, liheng!) and those who wished me on facebook! oh and those who wished me when passing by me!
right, i thank all these ppl but now like they read my blog. hahaha
today is a happy day. bcos besides receiving so much, i went shopping too after such a long while. I didnt buy much. It was more of the feeling of freedom and breaking away from normality that was so refreshing.
I really want to go to the beach!!!
I really want to cook some homecook food. I must go down to weggmans. i must. MUST. =))
right. my diary is in a hideous template. see chenjie, I cant even handle my own blog template how to help you??
ANWS. too much has happen. My nails are still growing terribly fast and wellwell, malisa just got older.
two surprises and some cards received, NOPE socks. yours isnt here yet (actually, I havent checked today...maybe it did!)together with some presents!
malisa feels loved and popular in her entire 36 hour long birthday, including being on facebook too. hahahhaha
So, I clearly rmb how my birthday was last year. It was study break and we didnt have to go to sch but somehow, that day, I still had to go back in the morning, some make up lecture. Received many presents from classmates, many smses and someone even travelled all the way to my house to pass me a very nicely prepared gift which later served great use. I was touched! by everyone of course. hahah
This is my first birthday spent outside singapore, away from my family. Its just different isnt it? Haha for the next three years (at least) I'll be doing just that, spending birthdays away from home, missing out chinese new year too (ok, random). I'm very touched by all who have made an effort to do something for me today, whether to send me cards (after I subtley hinted my address in US), to give me simple but very sweet presents (Lina and Joelle!), very nice velvety card (chloe!), surprise #1 (wendy, christina and ricardo) and surprise #2 (daddy, mummy and pinky), continue contributing to my chicken poxified door (zhao wei!), those who sent me ecards! (cy, wyf, the officer (ahem), sent me an email (wanyiyiyi, liheng!) and those who wished me on facebook! oh and those who wished me when passing by me!
right, i thank all these ppl but now like they read my blog. hahaha
today is a happy day. bcos besides receiving so much, i went shopping too after such a long while. I didnt buy much. It was more of the feeling of freedom and breaking away from normality that was so refreshing.
I really want to go to the beach!!!
I really want to cook some homecook food. I must go down to weggmans. i must. MUST. =))
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