27 Nov 07

right. listening to music helps motivate me to blog. i will try my best to keep this blog alive as long as possible!
I found another funny fact about studying in America:
If you forget to bring your worksheets, just ask for a new one. No punishment, no reprimanding, no questions asked, no warnings not to do it again. wow.
I went to watch the nutcracker ballet yesterday. it was really beautiful and pretty with all the costumes and props and sets and of course lovely music. RPO (rochester philharmonic orchestra) is really good. i have never heard tchaikovsky's nutcracker suite as a whole until yesterday. i finally know how the music fits into the ballet, I played the piano transcriptions before and what i imagined to be was not like that at all. hmm. oh well!
Anw, back to what i was supposed to blog about yesterday. hmm several reflections about being a performance major.
I still cant accept the fact that ppl expect all performance majors to do spontaneous performances anywhere, anytime. maybe i'm just not good enough, not steady enough to react and adapt quickly to demands. maybe it's becos i want every performance i do to be perfect. well, maybe not so extreme, but at least to a certain standard.
My ideal performance is not a performance where i play everything perfect but rather it is where i feel perfect. It is when my audience is totally absorbed into what I play and where I get a sudden satisfaction that I still have no idea how to describe. This satisfied feeling is an addictive one and this is also the very feeling that motivates me to do performance after performance.
I get goosebumps everytime I hear music that really moves me. just imagine giving yourself goosebumps by what you play. I have had several experiences of this but it doesnt come very often. hmm