one year!

2 Feb 07

It's the first audition day today at Eastman! Looking at the buzzling sight of the Eastman main hall, nervous faces of applicants trying to find a practice room/get the location of interviews right....just brings an understanding smile to my face. So fast! One year has passed! This feeling is perhaps the same as what Wendy and I felt when we saw the J1s entering RJ as we peered down at ourselves wearing the RJ uniform, feeling "filled-with-power-and-authority" haha. no no we're not power-hungry. Just a moment ago, we were like them, wearing our shabby secondary school uniforms and looking at our seniors with the "correct" uniform...guaranteed that they will be staying at RJ even after march. I remember feeling so so so excited as I pinned up the RJ batch on my blue convent pinafore..it's as if my four-year-old uniform just got value-added! haha even when visiting SNG within the first three mths, legally not wearing my name tag, i felt powerful! oops no i'm not power hungry! just felt older, more mature. ahem guess i've always looked up to the seniors that graduated and came back in their sch uniforms with new sch badges. heh

indeed. so i practised very guiltily today. i thought of how i was once one of those applicants frantically finding a practice room thinking "just give me ten minutes to warm up my fingers!" the more i thought the more i felt that if i hogged my practice room any longer i'm ruining the future of applicant X. (self drama indeed...) and of course i couldnt take it and i hurriedly went through my concerto once and left. guess the applicants really need that room more than me! so i'll just play my little part.

i remember first stepping onto rochester soil in the last week of feb in 2006. cold cold cold! wendy and i were sorta stranded at the airport cos somebody who was supposed to meet us at the airport didnt turn up and we didnt know where the hotel shuttle phone was and where the shuttle busstop was! before this we were actually delayed in detriot airport where i remembered making a call to somebody i havent talked to for so long, who was supposed to call me one day, and whose voice was too familiar for me to take it. i just broke down at the airport. i told him our plane was delayed but he didnt say that he wouldnt come to the airport. oh well! when you still had that impression that the person isnt that bad he fails you again..its disppointing! indeed auditions were an emotional roller coaster for wendy and i...we both had stuff to face up to. ahem. ah but nope i didnt have to face up to mine. i just repeatedly had ecentric mood swings. wohoho. i really tried very hard to put the past behind me so it resulted in bursts of angelic smiles followed by a really black face oh wellwell and the TENSION when i saw him with her. i rmb my mum constantly worrying for me bcos she knew who i'd be meeting there and her reminding me countless times that "be nice! or you'll be reflecting badly on yourself!" thankfully, there was edward meowmeow there to show us ard and talk to us...he appeared more willing anw. heh oh well i will not use this post to rattle on about the past. afterall, "what matters most is the present!"

i remembered being very stressed abt my A level results too during audition. my audition day was A level results day! man! and my dear mum conveniently forgot to tell me that my brother was too busy to collect my results for me. ahem and i scared myself nuts that i failed my chemistry.
i also remembered going back to clarion hotel remembering myself typing emails to a new found friend: one pin! hahah wendy and i would be drafting emails. haha

thinking back...ah! lots of stuff have happened. perhaps the thought that hit me most today was "hey..i'm really studying here at eastman". it sounds really warped since i know i've gone through a semester alr. i did my uni applications, got through the prescreening in eastman, went for live audition at eastman, did my scholarship applications, got the teaching scholarship and SHHK bursary, managed to move in smoothly, make friends and VOILA! i'm where i am today, at least for academics. i'm actually doing my uni studies! i dont think i ever imagined myself here when i was in pri sch/sec sch. heh

oh la? then of course there was this MOE thingy where i made many new friends...and i'm glad that though i'm stranded in cold rochester, the sun shone brightly and i wasnt left alone there with nobody knowing what happened to that violin girl.

and of course! i'm really glad theres strange singaporean girls: wendy, nana and joelle here to talk, play, emo, go crazy with, creating our rochester dictionary! oh yes not forgetting john, steph, ricardo that has made adjusting life to rochester much easier! :)